As I lay next to this bundle of joy, I can't help but count my blessings. My life has changed drastically. I went from full time workaholic to full time mommy in less than a year. I am now consumed entirely by my miracle baby who is the key to my happiness...whereas a year ago I would say that exact same thing about my career.
Since Olivia's been home, we've been trying to settle into somewhat of a schedule. Surprisingly, my OCD self hasn't been so proactive on scheduling and instead trying to bask in the joy of just having her home. Whether that be her 3am feedings or just all hours of the night fussiness... nothing and I mean nothing, will frustrate me. The entire situation from birth to now has given me such a new meaning to life with a brand new perspective. I thank God & her for that because at the end of the day, this is what life is truly about. Family, Love, and creating a life full of memories.
Since Olivia's been home, we've been trying to settle into somewhat of a schedule. Surprisingly, my OCD self hasn't been so proactive on scheduling and instead trying to bask in the joy of just having her home. Whether that be her 3am feedings or just all hours of the night fussiness... nothing and I mean nothing, will frustrate me. The entire situation from birth to now has given me such a new meaning to life with a brand new perspective. I thank God & her for that because at the end of the day, this is what life is truly about. Family, Love, and creating a life full of memories.
Don't get me wrong, I do miss fashion and the business. I'm just not sure what the future holds with it. Lately I've been pondering on what exactly is the next plan of action for my career. For the last 6 months, my entire focus has been on Olivia and bringing her home. Now that she's home, I've been asking myself what's next? I can't just jump back into where I left off because fashion doesn't really work like that. In some ways, I have to start all over....but with a preemie that needs me. I've never been good at time management and I'm curious to see where do I go from here? If it were up to Steven, I'd be a stay at home mom...but as much as I LOVE being a mom, a huge part of me is linked to my passion for business & fashion. Being creative in any fashion feeds my soul and lately it's been itching to come out. Now only if I knew how I should go about scratching it!
